As parents, we anticipate and are overjoyed by our child's "firsts." First steps, first words, first smile, ect... I journaled every "first" that Karissa had. I kept a calendar and marked it all down so I wouldn't forget all her important milestones. I was so excited when she hit a milestone! I love to scrapbook and I even created a 2-page layout that captured some of the big first's of Karissa's life.
Lately though, I have been focusing on all the "lasts." The last time I went to Target with Karissa. Her last bath, last meal, last play date, last walk, last pair of pajamas she wore. I remember the last time I went to the grocery store with Karissa. I can recall every single item I bought. It makes me so sad.
I find it very ironic. Shortly after Karissa died, I started writing down everything we did in the last week of her life. I kept a very detailed journal. I didn't want to forget anything we did. Just as I never want to forget all of Karissa's "firsts" I never, ever, want to forget all of the "lasts".
5 years ago