Monday, July 6, 2009

Firsts and Lasts

As parents, we anticipate and are overjoyed by our child's "firsts." First steps, first words, first smile, ect... I journaled every "first" that Karissa had. I kept a calendar and marked it all down so I wouldn't forget all her important milestones. I was so excited when she hit a milestone! I love to scrapbook and I even created a 2-page layout that captured some of the big first's of Karissa's life.

Lately though, I have been focusing on all the "lasts." The last time I went to Target with Karissa. Her last bath, last meal, last play date, last walk, last pair of pajamas she wore. I remember the last time I went to the grocery store with Karissa. I can recall every single item I bought. It makes me so sad.

I find it very ironic. Shortly after Karissa died, I started writing down everything we did in the last week of her life. I kept a very detailed journal. I didn't want to forget anything we did. Just as I never want to forget all of Karissa's "firsts" I never, ever, want to forget all of the "lasts".


  1. Adrianne~ What a beautiful reminder you share that we should never take one single "first", or "last" with our children for granted. All of your posts have been so thought provoking. I really think God is using you and Karissa for His glory. I am so sorry for all that you've been through and continue to have to walk through. There's a children's book I have that makes me cry each time I read it. It's called Let Me Hold You Longer. It talks about exactly what you just posted. We focus on all our children's firsts but rarely on their lasts. I am praying for you this week, and will continue to do so. I am so, so sorry for the pain you're in. Please, let me know if there is anything I can do, or specific prayer requests you might have.