Tuesday, June 22, 2010

A heart full of emotions

Dear Karissa,

Today we found out that you are going to have a little sister and a little brother. It was so amazing to see both babies, your siblings. My heart is so full of emotions...joy, thankfulness, happiness and sadness...that you won't be able to meet your baby brother and sister.

What I want you to know is that even though you are not here with us, you will always be a part of our family. We are now a family of five. You will never be replaced. Never. We have not taken down any of your pictures. They will remain just as they are, only we will add to them. You will always be a part of this family. We will still remember the day you entered this world and the day you left.

I have had a few people ask me if we are going to tell your siblings about you. Absolutely! Your baby brother and sister will know that they have a big sister, only that you are up in heaven. They will know everything, every detail about you. We will share pictures and videos of you with them. They will know what a sweet big sister you would have been. And when the time is right, they will know how you left this earth.

I hope you don't mind, and I know for certain that you won't, but we have saved all your toys and books for your baby brother and sister. You were always such a kind and giving little girl and I know that if you were here, you would be more than happy to share. Your baby sister will be in your room and your baby brother in the room next to yours.

I know that you were smiling down from heaven today as you saw the joy and happiness on our faces. I only wish you could be here to share it with us. I cannot wait for the day when we will all be reunited again and you will finally get to meet you baby brother and sister.

I love you my sweet little angel.

Love, Momma


  1. As always, your writing touched me deeply. I am so thrilled that you are having twins - and one of each at that. No two could be more welcomed and loved, I'm sure. You are wise to keep the memory of Karissa alive. She is a person who is still loved and always will be. It will be a wonderful thing for her brother and sister to know that. Praying for continued blessings for all 4 of you.

  2. Congrats on your baby girl and baby boy! God truly has blessed both you and Mark. Karissa will always be with you. I can see her smiling when she found out she would have a little sister and a little brother. You and Mark are always in our prayers. Praying you have a safe rest of your pregnancy. Can't wait to see your beautiful babies!xoxo